I first discovered porn at the age of 12 or 13, as I was introduced to it by a couple of friends my age. The first few things I learnt about sex were from porn, as my introduction to this extremely explicit content occurred way before I had received any form of sex education.
Throughout my teenage years, porn became a growing habit, which was strongly encouraged by everything around me. Looking back, it is clear that not only did porn negatively shape my view on females and sexuality; it also replaced all of my intimacy needs. Before I knew it, porn had become a readily available powerful anaesthetic to treat any form of anxiety, boredom, stress, loneliness or sexual desire that came my way.
It was at the age of 19 that I started to realise that porn was a problem. I was watching porn multiple times a day, and as porn usage increasingly controlled my day-to-day living, it became clear to me that I was dealing with an addiction that was having a massively damaging effect on my life.
At the age of 20 (when I became a Christian), I decided that I had to get porn out of my life for good. That decision was made just over 5 years ago, and words cannot describe the struggle that I have had to find such freedom. I have tried various forms of counselling, group sessions, online courses, CBT and psychotherapy, read countless books and received online forum support. I have had many accountability partners and tried almost every online adult blocking program. There have been times during my recovery process, mainly due to withdrawal symptoms and a lack of hope for such freedom, that I have wrestled with depression, insomnia, stress, relationship issues, missed opportunities, and at times have struggled with suicidal thoughts.
A few months ago I started the Click to Kick group with Naked Truth Prayer, and I can honestly say that no other course has had such a profound impact upon my recovery journey. The content of the course contains the clearest and most helpful information that I have ever received. This coupled with an encouraging mentor and group support, involving people that have become friends, who are also struggling with the same issues, has been nothing like I have ever encountered before.
I can now say with confidence that I understand the exact path that I must take to recover from porn addiction in order to find lasting freedom. The transformation that has occurred over the past 3 months has been more significant than the past 4 and half years. I now have hope, and I can say that I am actually enjoying life. Freedom is finally in the grasp of my hand as I am experiencing increasingly longer bouts of time without and porn usage, and I know that I am at the end of the road, with no intentions of turning back.
I would strongly encourage anyone dealing with porn addiction to do the Click to Kick group with Naked Truth Prayer. My prayer is that one-day, everyone could have easy access to courses just like Click to Kick to find freedom from the devastating affects of porn.